Today after waiting for 18 days I was able to hold my sweet girl. It was magical, amazing, unbelievable, beautiful. I am blessed. It was only for 5 minutes, but it was 5 minutes of heaven. I can't wait for the next time. Lucy is doing well with her feedings. She is however having a lot of trouble breathing. Lots of apnea spells. It is scary to Mike and I but the nurses assure us that this is all typical. For now I am floating on clouds.